This break from Lent also gave me a lot of time to myself. I had feared that the loneliness would sadden me. All it did was make me realize how precious solitude is. I enjoyed being alone. I enjoyed the silence and the weight of my own body moving through the world. And whenever I felt separated from the online world, I'd center myself with the knowledge that I am surrounded by great people. It's amazing how the ones you love can become the anchors that keep you from losing yourself. I held on tightly to them and then, when I regained my courage, I slowly, cautiously, let go.
This was an experience I needed, a break that felt as relieving as it did frightening. I really found myself enjoying the moment as it was happening, not trying to post it on Instagram. I just let it be and basked in it. That's not to say I didn't miss posting my experiences somewhere all my friends could see. I like to share the moments of my life I find beautiful. Even the most simple things. Like today for instance, I visited Rockefeller Center to view the beautiful faberge eggs that were on display. I took pics of most of them but not before enjoying them unfiltered. I understood the nature of balance then, of not letting one thing consume you. I can always take a pic, but I realized the importance of enjoying the now. And it was a really lovely experience.
And while enjoying the beautiful weather and finding myself, I happened to find faberge egg Waldo lol. All and all I'm happy to be back in the world of memes and status updates, but I will not neglect what exists right outside my tablet screen. This world is meant for living. I will live it and share these bursts of happy moments on the way.
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