A very long time. Perhaps too long, since in between that long space my mind has been swimming and thoughts have been stirring that has both elated and terrified me. Thoughts of the future, a fantasy of success and independence has been trumped by the reality of insatiable bills and poor pay and the utter suckishness of being an adult.
But I've been reading a lot of positive literature like, "The Secret" and writings by Deepak Chopra and I'm kinda convinced that in order to lead a happier less suckish life, I have to believe in it. So I daydream. And I work. And I fill my mind with bursts of color that drowns out the gray that seems to spread into my vision like black oil in a clean body of water. I mean, life isn't that bad. Not really. So there's no reason to cry about it.
I have The Walking Dead to look forward to.
Game of Thrones too. Awesome.
And it's autumn, my favorite time of year. Pumpkins! Scary movies! Fall foliage! Wee!
So it's not that bad.
I just need to work on the gray fringes of my life. Get some more color in there. Jump in a rainbow or something like that.
I'll see how it goes.
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